Tim’s Diary - Goodbyes!

December 13th, 2008

The kids are destroying me at present, have been for the past two days. They are upset that i am leaving. Their tears are tearing me apart. I am back to wearing the sunnies to hide my tears. Don’t want them to see me shedding tears. I have to be strong, keep smiling and laughing for them. Giving them reassurance that i will be back, yet not knowing if i will be! It hurts, hurts more every time i come out. The bond becomes stronger on every visit. I wish i had more time. More time to spend with them. It takes so little to give them so much. And them to make my life so much richer.

I know that it is hard to understand for those of you who have not experienced what i have. To realise the difference one can make. I know i have critics back home, but fortunately not here. Here they see what i do. They share the experience with me. They don’t understand what i do in the UK but that is not important. What is important is the time i spend here with the community, building the trust and relationships. For the parents to allow me to take their children to the sea to swim. For them to trust me after such losses four years ago.

This is my last few hours here. I have 10hrs in a van before arriving at the airport. The journey is tiring but the experience allows me to spend that time reflecting. It is emotional but i’ll not change it for anything. I am prepared to sacrifice a huge amount of my life and opportunities just so that i can give a little to those that have suffered so much, and will never have the opportunities that i have had.

I thank my parents for my life being so rich. My true friends for allowing me to be me, supporting me, and accepting that i am human and that i am not perfect, and i make mistakes, and hopefully i learn from them. And i thank all of you who have supported me in allowing me to achieve so much. Be safe in all you. Be happy. Thank you.

See you in the UK.

Tim

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